Surgery

Because Aero was in the NICU, we hit our family deductible with our insurance. And with that being the case, Andrew had surgery on his foot a few weeks ago. He had broken his foot when I was 8 months pregnant with Donovan (that was fun!), and has had screws in there ever since then. Taking the screws out is considered a full surgery, and we didn't have the extra $$$ to take care of it. But since we hit our deductible this year, we decided that we might as well get that surgery taken care of. He has healed well and is glad to be on the other side of this, finally.

Next on our list is Marcail. She has had a cyst of some sort in her throat since she was born. You can see it when she tilts her head up - exactly in the middle of where her collar bones meet. We had it looked at last year by a throat specialist, who said that it probably is not dangerous now, but its always uncertain what it could turn into down the road. So... you can probably guess the rest - she is getting throat surgery on Monday. I know its a minor surgery, but I still feel like I'm going to tear up badly then, seeing her getting ready to be operated on. But I think its still the best thing to do at this point- also because her scar should not be very visible when she's an adult if she gets this done now. I'm a girl, so I understand wanting to look pretty : )

That should be the end of our short but full surgery list. It feels very rushed, especially in light of other changes taking place here. I'll address that later. No, I am not pregnant : ) -I only say that because some people have asked that when I told them I had some news- but please pray for our family!

Still Adjusting but Almost There

Having a new baby is always a big adjustment. Its exhilarating to hold a new life in your arms, the same life that grew forever in your belly. It exhausting to be awoken at night, every few hours, to a demanding, hungry cry. Its heart warming to see your baby's first smile, and realize that they recognize you as their mommy. Its one of the best feelings in the world to smell a newborn's head as they are snuggled up in the crook of your neck. Being a parent sometimes make you wonder if you could ever be spread thinner on the patience level than you are right now. Sometimes you want a huge field to scream in, with no one to hear and wonder if you have truly lost your wits. Sometimes you want to gather all your children up in your arms like a mother hen, and kiss and hug every one of them at the same time. You find yourself wanting a moment's peace, and then when you are away from it all, you miss the noise and chaos like crazy. Somehow, in the insanity of it all, your children have crept into your heart and claimed a huge chunk of it, and it hits you that your life is changed forever with them in it. Every one of your children will hold huge pieces of your heart until the day when your life on this earth is over. And even then, I suppose you will still love them.