A Conversation

Here is a conversation I had on the ever-popular Facebook, via "chat," with my friend Amanda Taylor, who lives here in Colorado Springs. I was crying by the end of this-- of course, that is all I seem to be doing these days-- But I hope it will touch your heart as it did mine, because we have been flooded with notes and calls, and offers for meals and prayers, etc. What she says is true, and I have so many of you to thank for it:

Amanda : Got the news last night, I am praying for you and the fam and anything I can do please let me know

Anneke: ok
I just wish there was something
like a new heart that doesn't hurt so much
something along those lines
but you can't get those at wal-mart
or a baby
but thank you :)

Amanda: yes that is true and wal mart sells everything, but God promises us that through our pain and times where are hearts feel like they won't find peace that that He will be that peace

Anneke: I feel like I've prayed for bread
and my Father keeps giving me scorpions
in my head I know that He is a good Father
even when it doesn't make sense
but I don't know that the core of me REALLY believes that
I want to
but I feel like I keep getting stabbed in the heart over and over

Amanda: remember the story of moses in the old testment?

Anneke: which one

Amanda: there was a section in there that talked about how he stood at the top of a mountain and as long as his arms were raised his people were winning and when they lowered they were losing

Anneke: yes

Amanda: when his arms got really tired aaron and another person stood beside him and helped him by lifting a arm each. its may sound silly but that story makes me think of you right now

Anneke: i don't understand, I guess...

Amanda: i know that your heart is breaking right now and andrew's as well and both of you may feel like putting your arm's down because of not understanding how God works when things like this happen

Amanda: but take heart and be encouraged that right now knowing that beside you and andrew on this mountain right now as your arms are feeling weary and you want to just lower them that there are family behind you lifting them up as you go through this battle

Anneke: thank you
that means a lot

Amanda: no problem, for some reason it got stirred in me listening and I am starting to learn when God starts speaking even if it does not make sense to me that it may to the person I am talking with

Anneke: it does

Amanda: then it makes my heart happy because I did what God wanted me to do